Going back to school

This is it. My first university subject in a *cough* very long time, starts in just over a month.

Last time I was young, naive, and fresh from high school with really no idea of where or what I wanted to do other than Criminology (yes, really), sounded extremely appealing.

Fast forward 20-odd years later and here I am. A completely new discipline (science), two kids, a husband, and a whole lot of water under the bridge, with more to come.

How the hell am I supposed to juggle studying to the level I want (thank you to my husband who pointed out that with my personality, "the bare basics" probably won't cut it ;) ), plus all the stuff that comes with two active children with intense personalities, continue with my household responsibilities (hello paying bills, cooking, washing, cleaning etc) and also support and spend time with my husband, and other important people in my life.

Let's just say it's a little overwhelming and slightly terrifying.

I don't like asking for help, I just sort of keep going until I fall down in a great big emotional mess ;)

But I'm going to have to.

I've started with really cracking down on chores for my kids. They are 13 & 9, completely old enough to have specific responsibilities and be expected to do the basics (like make their bed and keep their room tidy).

Next step is a cleaner I suppose. I'm thinking having someone come and mop the floors, clean the bathrooms and maybe a few other things once a week may be a good idea. It's also another incentive for the kids to pick their darn stuff up and put it away properly :p

I need to learn that I can't always 'do it all', and that's ok. This is a phase of life that needs to be passed through in order to come out the other end having achieved my goal which will only benefit myself and my family in the long term.

Focus on the process and not the end result. The whole concept of an entire degree is overwhelming, but I can break it down into Study Periods and go from there. One step at a time.

And get the help when I need it.